urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman We are stardust... vegiwoman 2008-03-31T23:50:34Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:39926 2008-03-31T23:50:34Z 2008-03-31T23:50:34Z words dripping from my mind to my mouth - <br /><br />they are just dripping,<br />forming a stalactite<br />or something...<br /><br /><br /><br />sometimes i find myself unable to move,<br />with words and their consequences crouched in my throat<br />waiting for freedom or further confinement<br />and who's to say which is which?<br /><br />and then you talk to me<br />and i could say so much<br />but i don't need to.<br /><br />we are just walking towards the cemetery<br />and we're listening to the world urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:39548 2008-02-09T13:00:59Z 2008-02-09T13:00:59Z currently (as current as words can be),<br />the big window in my room is open, there is a huge sun patch on the wood floor, the sky is a light winter blue, there are a few clouds, i just have my ben and jerrys shirt and my brown skirt on, it is about 65 degrees, fiddle music is playing, it is 13:55, there is green grass on the ground, i still of the taste of the bread i ate in my mouth, it is a good taste<br /><br />there isn't any snow<br /><br /><br />i come back in a week<br /><br />i had a dream in which my brother just got his license and he drove a blue plastic sled in the shoulder of the highway with me in the back, until he crashed into a car parked in the shoulder horizontally...<br /><br />i'm trying to figure out what and how to write my essay for my time here<br /><br />i am going to get more water<br /><br /><br /><br />over and out. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:39303 2007-12-02T17:29:32Z 2007-12-02T17:29:32Z i am going to make some clay...<br /><br />i'm glad to know that you are all alive...it is a nice thought.<br /><br />it is supposed to blizzard tonight<br /><br />erm....<br /><br />love urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:39021 2007-10-11T03:41:34Z 2007-10-11T03:41:34Z oh look..i'm posting...<br /><br />some people in a room right near me are jamming with mandolin and guitar and violin and singing rock me mama like a wagon wheel, rock me mama any way you feel...rock me mama like the wind and the rain, rock me mama like a south bound train....<br />its a good song<br />i'm going to write a spanish paper..<br />pip pip cheerio urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:38804 2007-05-21T02:51:25Z 2007-05-21T02:51:25Z high school is afformentioned stone.<br /><br /><br />being done with it will be like breathing for the first time in a long time<br /><br />it will be like taking off a forty pound pack after twenty miles of hiking uphill<br /><br />it will be like jumping off a cliff and hitting the adrenaline point<br /><br />it will be like stepping off of hot coals i didn't realize i was on and then feeling my feet start to heal<br /><br />it will be like skinny dipping<br /><br />it will be like coloring all over myself<br /><br />it will be breathing and living and being&nbsp;<br /><br />it will be freedom<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i am looking forward to restoring my health. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:38500 2007-04-29T20:40:22Z 2007-04-29T20:40:22Z hello<br />but:<br /><font size="7">HAPPY 18 BIRTHDAY&nbsp;CASSANDRA.<br /></font><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><em>i need some affirmation that i exist.</em> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:38313 2007-04-03T01:52:31Z 2007-04-03T01:52:31Z scribblescribblescribble urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:38067 2007-03-24T03:13:42Z 2007-03-24T03:13:42Z spring urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:37646 2007-03-20T03:05:03Z 2007-03-20T03:05:03Z <p>is there much to say?<br /><br />i guess there is so much to say.<br /><br />i mean, there is so much to say between us.<br /><br />There are so many words between us that never cross paths...they just hang there..in the middle of the subconcsious world, a little out of sight of each other.<br /><br />Maybe they aren't words.&nbsp; Maybe they are feelings or unformed thoughts or impulses...<br /><br />But they are there.<br /><br />Why can't we communicate or be intimate.<br /><br />These are our last monthes, we are ready to move on...but does it mean that we must go about nullified, non existent from our own denial of each other and the world around us and maybe ourselves?&nbsp; can't we be together and live and share the world we knew and don't know?<br /><br />Can't we be genuine and real and intimate?<br /><br />Out lips spill out how are you's, haphazardly...insincerely.&nbsp;&nbsp;<br /><br />Let's mean it next time.</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:37436 2007-03-15T04:23:55Z 2007-03-15T04:23:55Z and yes, i am still up.<br /><br />hope life is well for everyone.<br /><br /><br /><br />snow day tomorrow?<br /><br />haha..i'm such a jerk. oh well. i still hope it is a snow day tomorrow even if i've had too many days off.<br /><br />love. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:37162 2007-03-02T01:15:29Z 2007-03-02T01:15:29Z <p>SNOW ING SOON<br /><br />the end<br /><br />thinking outrageously, i write in cursive<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i am both celebrating life and mourning it<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />um...&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; bye</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:37084 2007-02-15T03:57:51Z 2007-02-15T03:57:51Z <p>sleep time.<br /><br />i need to get out some of that energy.<br /><br />you know what i mean?&nbsp; there is this particular kind of energy.<br /><br />it is the energy that wells up in you all day...but slowly and silently ---<br />like if there were a constant humidity in one room...eventually the room would fill with water particles...but imperceptibly..because it isn't raining - or even drizzling..yet it happens<br />and it's the kind of energy that is ambiguous --&nbsp;&nbsp;you could either laugh and be giddy or cry and be very sad, you could go cross country skiing for miles, or stand in one place and paint with your hands, you either want to be completely alone or completely with someone...<br /><br /><br /><br />i am in suspension</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:36715 2007-02-08T01:27:59Z 2007-02-08T01:27:59Z hey<br />you<br />out there on your own<br />can you hear me?<br /><br /><br />haha. the squid and the whale. what a crazy movie. which that song now reminds me of.<br /><br /><br />so i actually meant to press on the friends page to read it<br />but since i pressed the post button instead..i figured i should post.<br /><br />" post "<br /><br /><br /><br />snow day tomorrow?<br />what do you think?<br /><br /><br />i think that is a yes.<br />yes, i do believe it will be a snow day.<br /><br />bye now.<br /><br />peace urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:36438 2007-01-31T02:08:54Z 2007-01-31T02:08:54Z <p>i am so tired<br />haha<br /><br /><br /><br />i feel like i am obligated to update this everyonce and awhile. not really. haha.<br /><br />um.&nbsp;<br />bye<br /><br /><br />peace</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:36224 2007-01-16T20:43:14Z 2007-01-16T20:43:14Z HELLLLO<br /><br />i'll go to hell if the rapture comes<br /><br />how fantastic<br /><br /><br /><br />errm.<br /><br /><br />i'm in a good mood right now.<br /><br />yay.<br /><br />we ate a good lunch and almost burned down the house.<br /><br />i'm going to draw or something<br /><br />peace, dears.<br /><br />"and you will blame me, blame me for the rocks and baby bones and broken lock on our garden, garden wall of eden, full of spider bites"<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />have a NICE<br />day urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:35958 2007-01-10T02:54:22Z 2007-01-10T02:54:22Z <p>Let my love reach you all<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i hope all are well in a world that is crazy</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:35741 2007-01-07T17:24:46Z 2007-01-07T17:24:46Z <p>and to discriminate only leaves hate.<br /><br /><br />GM is coming out with a new electric car...hopefully : )<br /><br />err. i felt like writing on this.<br /><br /><br />sooooooo<br />now i'm going to count beans<br />and then i'm going to make a map<br />and maybe after i'll do chem or stats<br />we'll see...<br /><br /><br />and later i'll see cassandra<br /><br /><br />"According to Feynman's formulation of quantum mechanics, particles must be viewed as travelling from one location to another along EVERY possible path.&nbsp; Here, a few of the infinity of trajectories for a single electron travelling from the source to the phosphorescent screen are shown.&nbsp; Notece that this one electron actually goes through BOTH slits."</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:35350 2006-12-20T03:44:00Z 2006-12-20T03:44:00Z what!!!&nbsp; ???<br />i CAN'T hear you......<br /><br />oh...oh what was that??<br /><br /><br /><font size="5">VACATAION, YOU SAY!!????<br /><br /></font><font color="#ff00ff" size="7">HELL YES IT IS VACATION TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br /><font color="#000000" size="3">yep!!!!! so, i'm pretty excited about that.&nbsp;&nbsp;<br />right now i have to clean my room, pack(pretty much all my clothes are dirty. haha), finish gifts, write brown essays, print off brown paper thingies..........<br /><br />um...the world is crazy.<br /><br />many crazy things happen. we do many crazy things. we make many things crazy.<br /><br /><br /><br />but at the moment, i am in a grand mood, thanks to thoughfullness, goofiness, clay, and love. and music too.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />yes. so there.&nbsp;<br /><br /><br /><br />there it is. i am not going to get on a computer, nor look at a screen of any kind (besides a camera) for a long time!&nbsp; for eight or nine days at least!!!&nbsp; and i'm going to see all my family. my cousins and grandma and hang with my sibs and parents and uncles and aunts.&nbsp; and i'm going to dig my feet into the sand. and i'm going to jump into waves. and i'm going to read for pleasure. and i'm NOT going to do any of my homework while there. and....and......i'm going to draw and paint maybe.....andd.........i'm going to sleep for 11 hours every night<br />and..i'm goin gto explore and ponder and connect!!!<br /><br /><br />yay!!<br /><br /><br />i hope everyone has a FABULOUS solstice or christmas or kwanza or end of channukkah.<br /><br />i hope you all are happy.<br />i love you!</font></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:35100 2006-11-29T20:25:40Z 2006-11-29T20:25:40Z ever close your eyes? ever stop and listen? ever feel alive and there's nothing missing?<br />you don't need a reason, let the day go on and on...<br />let the rain fall down, everywhere around you<br />you can do it now, let the day surround you<br />you don't need a reason, let the rain go on and on...<br />what a day, what a day to take to to<br />what a way, what a way to make it through<br />what a day to take to a wild child<br /><br />only take the time from the helter skelter, every day you find everythings in kilter<br />you don't need a reason, let the day go on and on<br /><br />every summer sun, every winter evening, every spring to come, every autumn leaving<br />you don't need a reason<br /><br />let it all go on and on<br /><br /><br />(thank you enya.)<br /><br />i hope that enya's fine lyrics have brought you hope this day...as katy once said: i didn't say the other things because people needed some positive. <br />so hopefully you all had good days full of good things <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />peace. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:34949 2006-11-24T21:42:08Z 2006-11-24T21:42:08Z i am just a somebody trying to be and feeling like a nobody...which helps people be who they are not who they want to be<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />but you know who is here? my sister, and her boyfriend, and my grandma.<br />and even though i've been sick since tuesday i'm happy they are here. cause i love them.<br /><br /><br />now i'm going to work on college stuff. bye. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:34674 2006-11-14T01:45:50Z 2006-11-14T01:45:50Z oh...<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />right. <br />and by the way, something smells silly.<br />and eliana is standing next to me talking a lot...and i'm really trying to listen.<br />"lexi's going to florida and rachel's going to boston, and i'm going to be lonely...so i guess i'll just go on the parallel bars and pretend i'm stupid...really thats what you do when you are lonely"<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />soooooooooooo........................................sosososososoooooo<br /><br />everything?<br />something?<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i hope maia comes up for thanksgiving.<br /><br />and all else. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:34500 2006-10-27T02:36:17Z 2006-10-27T02:36:17Z driving back from visiting kendra today...the lights were blinking and i thought...this is it...it is the big bazammo...<br /><br />i have so many thoughts in the way of the future and the now...and how people are and how i am.<br /><br />i talked to maia for awhile last night. which was really great. i like maia.<br />i love her, in fact.<br /><br />and i'm glad she exists. because we can be.<br /><br />and i'm glad kendra is doing better. and was able to make that super hard decision. and has people there to support her.<br />she is wonderful, also.<br /><br />still got some homework to do...i'll probably just go to bed...cause it is looking comfortable..<br /><br />i also have to pee<br /><br />and el salvador in two days.<br /><br />maybe i'll write in my journal the many thoughts that are inhabiting my mind at the moment.<br /><br />i might just go to bed.<br /><br />oh. rats. i forgot to register to vote today. silly me.<br /><br />i feel like the music that is playing..like, literally...i feel like it..physically...its weird<br /><br />"don't forget to breathe"<br /><br />huh.<br />the big bazammo, eh?&nbsp; i guess its here...but i don't know what i want it to be.<br /><br />peace, my dearies, may you enjoy life and may you help others to enjoy it also.<br /><br />ps, everytime i look at my icon when i am filling out the music and mood part i alway refall in love with harold and maud and its wondrous ness and that moment.&nbsp;&nbsp; just thought i'd share my joy with harold and maud. like i always do. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:34290 2006-10-22T02:46:25Z 2006-10-22T02:46:25Z Yep.&nbsp; So.&nbsp;&nbsp;<br />I'm so glad Em and Katy and Kelsie came.&nbsp; It was SO nice just to be together..not doing anything, just being, and laughing, and half sleeping.&nbsp; I've missed that.&nbsp; So, thanks for coming guys.&nbsp; it means alot.&nbsp; it was&nbsp;a good time.<br /><br />and wow. senior year. kind of crazy. as in...everyone has SO much to do.&nbsp; seriously.&nbsp; I don' tknow anyone who doesn't have fifteen things going on..&nbsp;<br />i kind of have no idea how i'm going to get this all done and go to nicks and the el salvador meeting..<br />but i'm not going to stress out about it...it isn't worth it.<br />it is worth it to actually work on it ..like i'm not doing now...<br />hmm..<br />thanks for the mix katy. i'm still listening to it.<br />the end.<br /><br />of this entry..<br />wait!<br />whoa!!!!<br />i think there is a tooth coming in the back of my mouth.<br />crazy.<br /><br />oy. with the everything.<br />but also..whatever. as in i'm not going to go too crazy...<br />blah<br />haha<br />lalal<br />i love you guys.<br />peace dearies<br /><br />oh..if your name is emily and you get stressed out by lists..don't&nbsp;read the below information...i need to do it for my own organization:<br />chemistry: <font color="#ff0000">15 minutes</font><br />english: <font color="#ff0000">15</font> + 1 hour + <font color="#ff0000">1 1/2 hours</font> = 2.45<br />art:&nbsp; <font color="#ff0000">3 hours + 4 hours = 7 hours</font><br />math:&nbsp; 30 minutes + 30 minutes + 30 minutes = 1.15<br />history:&nbsp;<font color="#ff0000"> 2 hours</font> +&nbsp;15 minutes = 2.15<br />other:&nbsp; posters (1 hour), sat II (20 min), thank yous (20 min)<br />college: ben essay (1 hour), vas sup (1 hour), brown app (30 min)<br />places:&nbsp; 3 hours + <font color="#ff0000">3 hours</font> = 6 hours<br />Total amount of absolutely needed time:&nbsp; 20 hours, thirty minutes...<br /><br />hmm..wonder how that one is going to happen...no sleep tomorrow?&nbsp; or will i work on stuff tonight?&nbsp; hmm...<br />after going through..i guess the minimum would be...hmm...fourteen? hours.. hmm..<br />if i get up at six...i can potentially be in bed by two.&nbsp; it could be worse. and i have a study hall monday.&nbsp; alright. alright. it will all be alright.<br /><br />sorry if you read that all...helps my mind be more organized though.&nbsp;&nbsp;<br />anyway. i hope <font color="#00ccff" size="4"><strong><font size="6">you</font></strong> have an absolutely <font size="6">stellar</font> day.&nbsp; you deserve it.<br /><br /><font color="#cc99ff" size="2">all my love,<br /><em><font size="1">rebekah<br />the end.</font></em></font></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:33952 2006-10-11T02:41:17Z 2006-10-11T02:41:17Z yay.&nbsp;<br />the morning was a good morning. did my poem. squeeked my desk. laughed with charles. generally enjoyed life.<br />the afternoon was restless with vague desire. hehehe.&nbsp;<br />err..<br />yep.<br />blah.<br />hehe<br />oh.<br />okay.<br />yeah the rest of the day was fine. asher and matt and i had a good time at hebrew school..just us and the rabbi. we ate pizza under the sukkah. it was grand.<br />ate pancakes when i got home. watched frontline. said....'fshsfaldfjk...." an adjective that describes our world. went upstairs...<br />read what people said.<br />and some emails.<br />and such.<br />and wrote this.<br />and am going to bed.<br />damn..never get in bed before ten.<br />the end.<br />i'm thirsty<br />i'm going to drink ots of water and then go to bed in silence and darkness and sleep well and wake up and take a shower and brush my hair and go to school and not miss/be late for the nhs meeting and go to english...etc. etc. etc.<br /><br />oh..and i still don't have my senior picture in..heheheheh<br /><br />ps....welcome home katy!!! i'm glad you had a good time!<br />pps...i'm way happy for you kendra! and excited. teeehee...it makes me happy. k^2 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vegiwoman:33760 2006-10-08T19:35:07Z 2006-10-08T19:35:07Z didn't get to bulid the sukkah...<br />but vivian and i went for an absolutely wonderful walk today.&nbsp;&nbsp; it was so beautiful.&nbsp;<br />it smelled like fall...that mix of dying leaves and cold air..<br />and the leaves were so many colors<br />and some were still green<br />and it was wonderful.<br /><br />homecoming was fine. same with the dance and dinner.<br /><br />auction got canceled<br />and i forgot to call maia and go to the bety meeting yesterday<br /><br />but i'm almost done the comon app.<br /><br />if anyone would like to roll around in the leaves with me...that is what i'm doing later.